its ok to wounder what if right?

i find myself asking myself  "what if this " or "what if that"   i wouldnt chang my life  and what i have  yes i want better.b ut i cant help to wounder what my life would be like or if i am doing it all right ..  i  wounder what my life would be...

Dear Father.

why were they not in my life more? why did i come last when you  were dating someone? why did my grandmother raise me ? why did you help me when i became pregant ? why didnt you try to help me stay in school? why are you not are in my...

its been a little bit..

jan 2017 was whenever i last posted so much has happen some smalll some big so put your selt belts on as i up date  it will take a sec... Fed-i hit my two year mark of bigging married  i pland a trip tosix flags and the aquarium took the day just...