6. 10 .15

walked away and gave up . but giveing up on something or someone you care for is not so easy.
but now that i have gave myself time to move on i have a husdand and a family that loves me for me.
 just as i dreamed for.
so why do i still hate myself for all the worng in my past with my sons father?
is it beacuse hes the father to my child?
or is it beacuse i will always care for him ?
or is it beacuse i havent forgave him?
  i know he will be in my life due to us having a kid and i know i will always care for him due to the facts that i once loved him and onced wanted him to be my forever and .. my son

i cant believe i stayed know what my son was seeing and hearing
i shouldnt have left the 1st time he pushed me . i would have saved myself and my son from so much . i make myself sick think about .. but i dont think i will ever forgive him . why should i?
black eyes, makes on my body . being hit so hard in the side that i couldnt chatch my breath , ot having my face rubbed into trash..

it all started with a push.
a push that should have mad me leave
a push that started all of the stuff my son saw or hear he was jusr 2 or 3 but still.
i will forever tell my son i am son for make the bad choice to stay.

i will be 24 in a few.
sweet 24 .
i am a mother of two and a step mom
a wife

i for once can say i love my life even with my pass still on my shouders.
 

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Comments (3)

  1. honestycounts

    Good for you. If they hit you once. ,they’ll hit you again! Statistics show it

    June 23, 2015
    1. night_owl

      right!!!

      June 25, 2015
  2. matthewcook

    Fresh air is very important to the health. Writer is so sad, in assignmentmasters review services, he walked away and give up. He is too sad and go away to the night. Fresh air is very good for health.

    July 31, 2017