i find myself asking myself "what if this " or "what if that" i wouldnt chang my life and what i have yes i want better.b ut i cant help to wounder what my life would be like or if i am doing it all right ..
i wounder what my life would be like if i never told him she was his.. where would i be in life? i know i would be a mother of 2 and not 4 (that though kills me) i wounder what would my life be like if that DNA test never happend... i wounder what my life would be like if he and i neverend and he would have seen her be born and her 1st smile... what i never got pregant the 1st time .. would i have gone to college ? what id had the three babies i lost i would have 7 kids what if i would have date and had a life with that one person ? what if i still lived with my best friend? would i have every got the best friend i have if i would have never meet baby daddy #1..
we all ask what to something at some point i love my life my 4 kiddos. my husband . i even am glad of my my passed only because it has made me whom i am now..
the only thing i wish i would have NEVER done was get my tubes tied , i know i can un do it but its hard to have a baby after it and i dont wat to cut my body anymore like that ..