whenever i found out how baby where made and born i told myself way before i ever had sex that if i was to end up at a teen mother i wouldnt giveup onmyself nor my child that didnt ask for the life it would have ...
i was 17 i stole a pee test and i rember takeing it at my grandmothers and hiding in my room for days . i recall the the call i made to the "father" to be he told they get to the Doc to make sure i lie to my grandmother to get to the "lady doc" and i ask for my grandmother to waitin the waiting room.. i told the Doc eveything ... peed in the cup.. and waited in thebiggest room of my life ..alone...asking my self what will i do ... it seam to be Hrs before they cameback when it was just a few mins.." your Pregant" my jaw dropped and so did the tears. doc called my grandamother in , and told her herjaw dropped but she pull out a paper and pen andasked what all i need to bedoing for my body to keep the baby healty, i kenw i wasnt alone she was there for me ..
i called the father to beand told hime andhedidnt think twice...that big old "A" word. but all i could think was why did i get the joysof the choice? why me ? then i though about my life before that day ... the toughs of ending my lifeand how i was needed... but that day i was needed by MY child . My Baby. My Son.
My Son Saved my life.
I am a Mother if 6 Babies and a step child..only 3 made it the other 3 Pasted before i knew thier sex.
whenever i 1st told family and friends i was having a baby at 17 they told all told me things ,all bad things what can happend to me and or the baby, thay would be there to help me .blah blah .. yes i was 17 and still had the world at my hands but i also had a child at my hands. i was 6 weeks along with my son whenever my dad and stepmother set a date for me to be moved out. my dad signme out if high school. i will never understand why walking out of my life was what was best . i wouldnt NEVER walk out of my childerns life NO matter how hard things will be.
I be came a Mother at 17 years old. i got to meet My 1st Son at 18 years old. watching him grown into the person he is and seeing that big smile and getting to look into his big brown eyes each. Make become a mother at 17 is when i felt my place in this world .when someone loved me back andneed and wanted around..
He calls me MOM
not only him his 2 sisters and Little Brother Call me MOM